Upbringing was a major factor. Nothing was ever good enough, I was always supposed to have done things differently and better. Never successes, always the flaws. Many folks will have experienced similar.
(So when faced with a compliment, we’re confused and looking for the catch)
I understand the intentions, but that’s not a good way to bring up happy well-balanced future human beings. Ones that are encouraged by and appreciate their own achievements (ie what life is supposed to be all about), instead of fretting over imagined mistakes and so making more.
the downward spiral, the snake that eats itself.
Society and Marketing work on similar standards - everything and everyone competing, comparing, always made to feel inadequate, encouraged to resent and attack those who fared better. Reinforcing.
Achieving something for yourself is treated as suspicious or boastful. You’re supposed to buy it, or bow and let someone else senior take the credit.
Humility is held as an ideal and rewarded. As is conspicuous consumerism/over-indulgence .. wait.. contradiction? Apparently not.
Being self-sufficient and at peace with yourself is not very profitable.
I’ve done a lot of thinking, and tried to strip away any damaging social programming. To identify and isolate what are my own thoughts/feelings from what I’ve been taught/am still told to think.
It isn’t as clear or easy as it sounds. Not sure I’m doing too well on it either.
Rationalising the process works to a certain extent, but when it gets personal, emotions kick in and all that thinking flies out the window.
Depends on the context, how solid I feel my achievement to be, the spread of supportive counter-arguments to bolster that feeling.
What has worked (for me) has been to keep on doing things - collect solid, quantifiable achievements.. as proof to myself and others that I’m not infernally useless.
Art, making things, studying and getting certificates, reading as much and widely as possible, to possess facts about everything, to be knowledgeable on as many topics as I can. Proof. Scaffolding. Weaponry.
To mentally squash the instinct to back down, curl up, deny any value in myself.
So now I get called arrogant, boastful, a know-it-all and a show-off.
I still fucking cringe on the inside. Then get furious at myself for still doing this.
This is wonderful commentary. Thank you.
"This video shows a rabbit heart that has been kept beating outside of the body in a nutrient and oxygen-rich solution. The new cardiac device — a thin, stretchable membrane imprinted with a spider-web-like network of sensors and electrodes — is custom-designed to fit over the heart and contract and expand with it as it beats."
A lot has been written about Barbara Gordon and what she did for the representation of people with disabilities in comics. So I won’t bore you with all my views on the matter.
Suffice to say Barbara Gordon became, in almost 30 years of comic history, a shining example of how there are many ways to fight for what is right, not just in a uniform. And how courage is not jumping in front of a bullet - it’s picking yourself up after the bullet hits its mark.
She is also probably the strongest, most consistent and valued female character to ever appear in comics. But that’s just my opinion.
The Co-Optional Podcast animated intro is just the best
Animator is http://www.youtube.com/user/SaberToonTigers
It does sum it it up rather nicely.
Jesse: A sexy do gooder who saves women, is tech saavy enough to own and operate an AT-ST, obvious Hadoken master, and a prima ballerina.
Dodger: She eats and has cats.
TB: Guns…and anger.
Today I witnessed something amazing. Almost in stark contrast to yesterday, today I saw tangible impact of lady-representation in comics.
At the bookstore I work at, we have a dedicated Adventure Time section. This family came in and those kids were SO EXCITED to see their favourite characters in comics. I talked them through each OGN and series compilation, explaining what they all were and in what order they should be read, and this little girl’s entire life was changed. You could see it on her face.
The moment I mentioned Kate Leth (and that, yes, she is a girl.) this little girl’s face lit up like Christmas morning. I don’t know if it just never occurred to her that girls can work in comics but the excitement and wonder that left the store in her was a privilege to see. I ended up selling them the Fionna & Cake’s, all the OGN’s, and an AT doodle book. She left begging her dad to help her learn how to draw Marceline comics. (And he was happy to comply!)
Kate Leth has left an everlasting impression on this little girl just by existing and working in the industry. I honestly hope to someday be able to see such an impact on someone from my own work. Ladies in comics is important. The representation on the page, and behind them, is important. Having a reflection of yourself in the content you enjoy is important. I hope that little girl grows up to be a famous comic author someday.
It was a very good day.